I crave the warm soft flesh touching mine, a body that presses against and seems to adhere, to be absorbed
I long for the taste of those lips, luscious ones that seem to sigh and cry in ecstasy when cherished and savored like none have before
The distinctive sweet smell sparks my lungs memory and with intoxicating effects, affect my mind so that the image of an angel appears before me and disappears as I exhale
The sight of an angel so beautiful that the white light of pure beauty burns an image of perfection in the back of my mind in the most imperfect manner; so whence I look everywhere, I only see those wings
My mind tries too hard to
If I put out my hand would you trust me?
If I put out my hand would let me fall?
If I put out my hand would you greet me,
Or would you go on flying ignoring my call?
Smile on beautiful angel, why are you still here?
Fly on little angel, get out of my head.
Even though angelic you still strike in me fear
Your eyes pierce through me, as your wings spread.
I reach out my hand, youre too far away
On the horizon you silhouette wanes
Your touch still lingers, I know not what to say
Your voice still echoes, was your affection feign?
Float on by and through my dreams
Leave me in peace or become reality
Dont let your intent
By my own hand
I am given a task
To compose words well written
Laying on sand
Burning questions not asked
With fear of being smitten
Smitten I was
Left sad and wise
Now Inquiring minds confused
I do not answer because
As I look into those eyes
The minds are not the only ones Bemused
I would like to confirm
What the minds assume
About involvement that has taken place
and I long to affirm
What everyone presumes
About the liaison I do embrace
Until given word
To admit the authentic truths
I will bite my prodigious tongue
When agreed and concurred
Will the amateur sleuths
Be awarded, and truth be sung
Shoot or be shot
Remember or be forgot
When in it pours down continue to look up
Even if its just air That fills your cup
Look out for no one, no one but you
It's the only way to make it through
Neglected
Rejected
Utterly disrespected
If you are not by my side
yet I have tried
I will leave you in the dust
This is an imperative must
Can't slow me down
I'm not waiting around
Need to be quick, have to be fast
The past is set, the present wont last
No pain, No gain, No Pleasure, No Fun
No rest until the task is done
Step up to the plate and place your bet
Raise the stakes, take a deep breath
Aim high and shoot to win
Close y
I am a giver, I'm a receiver
I am a receptor, I'm a perceiver
I weigh out my choice
Standing strong in my voice
Living without regret
No destiny is ever set
Given a problem, I will analyze
Give me a thought, I will philosophize
I am a fighter, not a hater
I am a lover, I'm a creator
With high energy, I live in passion
The way I see fit, my way, my fashion
I am a saint, I'm a sinner
I learn from losing, I'm a winner
I indulge in life
Take challenges without strife
Making my dreams into reality
Proudly look back at the finality
I'll take a chance, with little fear
The past is gone, the future's near
I am grounded, I am stea
I sit here sobbing
Reading your beautiful words of pain
You must believe me when I say
I am feeling the same
I want you to be in my heart
So you could feel what I'm going through
The joy, the sadness, the pain, the bliss
Everything I had with you
But as much I hate to say it
I think this is for the best
I think of the good and bad memories
and I do not love you less
But there are some things
That needs to be done
Maybe in the future
We may become and stay one
I value you and
What you have been
Please don't let go of every thing
You are my best friend
Sometimes we had differences
That were difficult to deal
But maybe I
I killed a heart, a life, a love
Two souls once soared in the sky above
Lies, coldness, neglect were thrown
there they lie dying two souls one stone
One stone heart that killed it all
one stone heart going through withdrawal
It was controlled by the head it was all in the mind
temporarily insane committing this heinous crime
When it woke up the damage was done
the souls lay dying and the heart was alone
the heart went back to its ever soft state
sobbed, cried and pleaded but it was to late
I the stone reached for the sky
screaming for forgiveness, and for the answer of why
I waited in the rain and there was no reply
I bled and
I have betrayed your heart, I pray you may heal
and I don't expect you to believe that I know and feel
what it is that you're experiencing and what you have felt,
I taste a savory side of regret and a generous serving of guilt
My actions were brash, uncalled for, not thought through
I voiced the final verdict, then knew not what to do
I held on to the idea, blindly seeing bliss way ahead
but now I see that I deserted, leaving you for dead
Please forgive me for my foolish act
please give me the chance to mend your heart, cracked,
It takes two to tango and I dropped you on the floor
now it is up to you to show me the door
and which
I crave the warm soft flesh touching mine, a body that presses against and seems to adhere, to be absorbed
I long for the taste of those lips, luscious ones that seem to sigh and cry in ecstasy when cherished and savored like none have before
The distinctive sweet smell sparks my lungs memory and with intoxicating effects, affect my mind so that the image of an angel appears before me and disappears as I exhale
The sight of an angel so beautiful that the white light of pure beauty burns an image of perfection in the back of my mind in the most imperfect manner; so whence I look everywhere, I only see those wings
My mind tries too hard to
Look to the stars
Look in my eyes
Welcome to my world
Welcome to my side;
Where poisons heal
Where flame chills
Where adrenaline calms
and love kills
Where honesty lies
you fall off ended line
The heart is crushed
and insanities dine
On bloody platter
With silver knife
Where dead lay flowers;
graves of resting life
Where the fool is wise
Smiling fool is right
Jacob's ladder
stops short of light
Here you walk on sky
and the ground is up
Air is all that fills my cup
Where the harder you try
leaves you hard fall
louder you scream
more muffled your call
The more you thank
the more is taken
People are optimistic
whi
I stood in the mist around me a chill
In front of me stood the beauty of all
And time together speeds but seems so still
I look in her eyes, and I feel so small
Yet stillness I long, for her melodious sight
And stillness I wish, for her sweetened touch
But stillness I need, for her taste so bright
Good stillness be still, I do not ask much
For in her eyes; you see there stars unite
On her tongue speaks such gentleness none cloy
Her embrace; warm, kind, firm, yet so light
She is so wonderful, and I just a boy
I see her figure in the misted chill
I see her so beautiful, time be still
As much confusion she has dealt
I will send back so she knows what I've felt
I will not talk, I will not phone
I will just sit and scheme alone
Perhaps after time has passed
A little question will be asked
Where is he? Where did he go?
Maybe only then will I know
How much to expect, how much to believe
Then ration out how much to give, how much to receive
But I feel that I will receive more than I believe
That our hearts will unite, it's all up to me…
…Nah.
I hide;
I hide behind my action
I hide behind my smile
I hide behind colors and
behind different "styles"
I hide behind stupidity, false stumbling falls
I hide behind my jokes, and dancing down halls
I call for help and insist to rely on my own
I hide all and all how I feel so alone
Her soft skin reflects the ambience of a near like dream
Her face so smooth, melodic eyes dance and gleam
I extend my palm to the tranquility and touch her on her cheek
But she stays unlike any vision, so entrancing, so meek
Yet like a vision, a dream, every second is received in such rapid flight
And once more like a vision, you want it back, the time, the sight
The words, the sounds
The smiles, the sights
The smells, the walks
The hugging, the holding, the touch
The kissing, the taste
The feelings
I miss it all forever and will ever and again
And ever will I miss it, to the very end
Is it lust or love?
How can I tell?
I feel for her and she is always on my mind
and she is so silent, quiet of quiet kind
Sometimes I doubt the words she does and has said
but then reassured by her voice, my worries lay dead
Yet resurrected again, my worries are alive
and the more manic I become, as my doubts thrive
Maybe I shouldn't question if it is love or lust
but accept the fact, I have issues with trust
There once was a boy who went to the store
getting materials for his gramps a daily chore.
"I am bored. Every day is the same ole thing.
I know I'll get a CD so I can sing!"
"Not ramstien, no limp bizkit, yes! Atari Teenage Riot!"
"But look who's that tall dark and quiet?"
"Death! O'jeez and he's beckoning me!"
"Psst! Hey kid do you want to find some peace?"
"Me?! Nah, I've go to be on my way."
"Ok kid, whatever you say."
So the boy drove home, scared out of his mind.
"Need to tell Pops, hiding I need to find!"
"Pops! Hey Gramps! Guess what? Guess who I've just seen!"
"Boy it's late where have you been?"
"But gramps!
Heir I am with heaviness of heart
So heavy it soon might burst, but not of
Sadness, but joy that I pray not to part
Joy of knowing a girl, dare I say I love
When 'round her my heart is full of warmth and glee
Her eyes leave you speechless, she smiles and you melt
Does she ponder how much she means to me?
No word can express how much I have felt
And still do feel for her all just the same
Never felt different, just obscured by confusion
I suppose it is I and no one else to blame
To be so attached and false illusion
We will see whether it be her or I
Anything will I do for her to suffi'e*
Life; How quaint
To live is to love and
to love is to die
Irony, Irony
I believe in one God,
Myself the Almighty
Should I not control my life?
But if to love is to die,
I have died
a thousand deaths, yet still
I live
Irony, Irony
Life is fickle
Imaginary
But if indeed loving is dying
and living is loving,
why do I feel most alive,
when I should be dead?
Irony
I am shaking
I am lost
my emotions are gone
and all I feel is
a pit
dark and beckoning
Pulling me closer
I fear
I want to live
I want to love
Through the pit
I will face my fear
I will control my life
I believe in one God,
The Almighty, Myself
...Relatively Cheap Prices by turkishworrell, literature
Literature
...Relatively Cheap Prices
Manufactured Emotions at Relatively Cheap Prices
angry Human
obviously holds
hate in the heart
preys on all
for unseen
unknown
r e a s o n s
where everyone
and everything
is against him
all manufactured
all the same
e x a c t l y
the same
the paint and moldings
chip and crack
in different places
creates
uniqueness
internal gears
all turn the same
move in the same
m o t i o n
cyclic motion
it gets old
same problems
exactly
the same
just different places
shined and polished
made to look new
but feels used
they get cheap
l i f e
gets cheap
same monotony
in everyday
wears her out
watching the clock
memor
Look to the stars
Look in my eyes
Welcome to my world
Welcome to my side;
Where poisons heal
Where flame chills
Where adrenaline calms
and love kills
Where honesty lies
you fall off ended line
The heart is crushed
and insanities dine
On bloody platter
With silver knife
Where dead lay flowers;
graves of resting life
Where the fool is wise
Smiling fool is right
Jacob's ladder
stops short of light
Here you walk on sky
and the ground is up
Air is all that fills my cup
Where the harder you try
leaves you hard fall
louder you scream
more muffled your call
The more you thank
the more is taken
People are optimistic
whi
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This is the first journal post that I have made in over a year... I have since had two birthdays and many experiences.. the question is will anyone read this.. Or have my friends all gone???
Hey everyone, long time no E. I'm down in San Diego now, starting my sophmore year in college. sorry I have been so absent, but I have some work coming out that I think that all of you will like. My girlfriend just informed me today that she signed up for DA today so please check her stuff out, and post what you think, and I'll send her down your way. Good to be back DA hope to here from ya'll soon.
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...yes it's been awhile... a long while, I have nothing to submit because I've been so busy , school, work and blahdy blah. I got my head shots done today, as soon as I get them I'll submit it. It's the next big step to stardom, you'll all see me on the silverscreen soon enough. Someone drop an email or something if you feel so inclined.